H-E-L-P! There I said it.
No, actually I just spelled it.
Ok, let me try again.
HELP! Ok, phew! I did it.Sometimes it's really difficult for me to ask for help. I'll confess that sometimes I feel like it would be easier to just do it myself. Other times pride might just creep in, and I don't want to admit that I need help. But most of the time, I just don't want to bother someone by asking for help. I figure that everyone has such busy schedules already, that I don't want to ask them to do one more thing. I don't want people to feel badly because they have to say no or to feel obligated to do whatever I'm asking. Does that make sense?
Our Foster Adoption process is pretty much on hold right now. Do you know why? Because I'm having a hard time asking for help. We have to take 6 sets of classes in preparation to become adoptive parents through this program. These are major classes.... I'm talking 7 hours on a Saturday, or sometimes a Sunday.
All I can see is the negative. I think to myself, "Self. Who would want to take on your boys for 7 hours on a Saturday?? Who wouldn't reject that request?" I should be thinking on lovely things. I should be thinking things like, "Who would be blessed to be a part of this process? Who would love to help make our dream come true?? Who would love to bless a child??"
I'm trying. I'm trying to discipline my thoughts. I'm trying to step aside so that God can provide.
I'm learning to ask for help...